Hi friend! If you're new here, welcome to GUIDED, my newsletter and online home for spiritual creatives, documenting my journey to live a life guided by intuition, vision and soul. Today, I'm starting a 5-part series sharing my path of coming home to one of my first guides, Mother Earth. If you've been feeling called to move, travel, leap into the unknown... this is for you. Subscribe to receive my weekly shares to your inbox and share with a friend who might resonate, it means more than you know. Thank you for being here. - Jenni
Writing to you from Austin. I am sipping my favorite cacao and with winter officially here I am on a serious kick with it. Cacao is a heart opener and grounder, it helps me connect back to my truth and intention, so I love to have a cup before I create, vision or work on a project.
It’s a rainy, gloomy day and I’m getting ready to pack up my storage unit and close a cycle I began 4 years ago. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss the desert, the quiet, the dry mornings outside in the sun, but it does feel good to be back in the city that my heart called me to so many years ago.
A calling that guided me back to my true home… not found in a place, a space, a person, but found within myself and Mother Earth. And a calling that began when a city spoke to me…
Austin was one of the first places that I was guided to intuitively.
Although, at the time I had yet to consciously explore my intuition and didn’t have the words for what that felt like just yet. I would visit for work once a year and on the last day of my trip I’d always feel a strong sensation in my body. Looking back now, it resembled the heartache one might experience leaving their long distance relationship after a long weekend together. Your time fleeting and bittersweet.
I would spend the next 5 years dreaming about the potential of making a move and receiving the signs loud and clear to take the leap.
I believe the Universe is always, always communicating with us. At this time, signs looked like Austin popping up in random conversations, seeing it in movies, on t-shirts, meeting people who grew up in the city, job opportunities, invitations. Basically, the Universe dropped it into my awareness whenever it could.
It wasn’t until 2018, that the doors (mentally and physically) unlocked for me to move there. I had hit a low point with my mental health and this time opened my eyes to everything that was misaligned in my life - job, relationships, home, priorities, habits - and I started making moves to create a new reality. (I share more about my spiritual awakening journey here and here.)
I didn’t know anyone in Austin at the time and couldn’t logically explain why I would move… I grew up in LA, all my close friends and family lived there, I had a “good, stable” job, etc, etc. So, I kept the vision close to my heart and decided I would visit for a weekend and see how I truly felt in a new city alone.
This was my first solo trip. I remember how anxious and fearful I was, which makes me laugh now thinking of all the things I’ve done since. That me would be mind blown… yay for growth! I’ve always been pretty independent, but for some reason being outside of your bubble makes everything feel that much more unknown.
“Why am I being called here?” I wondered.
The weekend held clarity, magic and insight. I went thrifting, exploring, honky tonkin’ and adventuring all over the city… and I loved it. It was stretchy and uncomfortable, but I had full power to show up exactly as myself - the woman I was becoming. I made friends with strangers and started convos with people eating dinner at the bar. Things I would never have adventured to do on my own at home…It was wildly expansive.
I could feel a new (and slightly terrifying) version of myself pulsing through… a feeling that I was exactly where I was meant to be.
I left knowing there was something more to explore and planted the seed that I would move at the earliest chance I got.
Fast forward 7 months and things had become increasingly toxic at work… I remember having a conversation with my boss that completely unraveled me.
I found myself standing at a choice point, at a crossroads of my current life and the life I had been asking for. “Leave or stay… What do you choose?”
Well, the “facts” were.. I didn’t have other opportunities/jobs lined up. I barely had any savings. I didn’t know what I wanted to do next. And “my plan” was to quit at the end of the year...
It was all happening so fast and my mind was spiraling.
I decided to attend a holotropic breathwork class that evening with the intention of making a decision. And d*mn, the clarity broke through…
It was time to leap.
To be continued…
Are you feeling called to move, leap, travel into the unknown? There is something powerful that happens when we speak/share where we’re being guided to go… We transform it from thought to intention and set the spark in motion. This is a safe space to share, I’d love to hear from you in the comments below!
I’ll be sharing what happened next, the highs, the lows and the in-betweens of my return back to nature. Make sure to subscribe to get the next post in your inbox (and support my free work!).
All the love,
Jenni
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